Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Misphah and Shen. He named it Ebenezar, saying , "Thus far the Lord has helped us." 1 Samuel 7:12

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Life Changes in a Moment

Just 2 girls from New Hampshire walking in the woods of Oregon

I've always said "you never know what a day holds".
If you think about any traumatic or life changing event in your life if happens in a moment.

I first realized this when I was in my first car accident. It was 1990 and I was going about my day as no other and then suddenly on my way home in a split second I was thrown from a car and woke to being pinned under it.

Fast forward to the day I found out we were moving to Florida in 5 short days,
or the evening I was told I would a grandmother,
and yet again it was an ordinary day when I heard a friends toddler had passed away.

November 11, 2011 was a life changing day when I received a call asking if I would be willing to become a mother again to a little baby girl born just an hour earlier, her mother unable to care for her.

All of these events have one thing in common: I woke up and went about my day as any other. 
I showered, or didn't, got dressed, ate, spoke with my loved ones and went about my business; then suddenly, out of no where, life hit me.
Life happens.

On February 26, 2015 it was one of those days.
Kind of.
I woke up and knew I had a doctors appointment to go to; however, it was not just any doctors appointment, it was an appointment to find out the result of a recent breast biopsy I had.

That day would forever change my life.

That was the day I heard the words that still baffle me today,
that was the day I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Bam!
Another day, like any other, until life happened.

That next day I was driving over the big bridge here in town and could see the beach and the ocean for miles and miles; God's creation as beautiful and untouched from that view. I remember it clearly as I spoke aloud to God saying, "wow God I am going to be a breast cancer survivor".

It's been quite a journey these last few weeks.
I chose to continue on a trip planned to Colorado and Oregon
and put off surgeon and oncologist appointments until after Easter.


I've gotten all kinds of advice and opinions.
I've listened to lots of peoples breast cancer stories, each of these women are incredible.

I've prayed.

I've been prayed for.

I can honestly say the initial news was shocking and stunning but not scary.
I know lots of breast cancer survivors, so fear was really never an option.
I slept soundly that night and the nights following,
in fact it wasn't until 3 nights ago that I awoke and couldn't stop thining about it.
Obsessing.
Worrying.
What if I chose the wrong doctor, or take the wrong treatment path...
the what ifs will kill you... if you let them.

I walked out of that first doctors appointment with one thing on my mind.
The Lord is on the throne.

No matter the diagnosis there was one thing I knew for sure and that was that the Lord God was on the throne in the heavenlies and He knew this was part of my journey long before it came to be.
That was all I needed.
I slept peaceful, took each thought captive and really just had, and have a peace that I am healed because of the wounds and bruises of Jesus Christ. The Bible says "By His wounds we are healed."
Past tense... "ARE healed"
I believe that.
I serve a God that is believable.

After that night of thinking on the diagnosis and the mistakes I could make, God sent 4 women to my home via AirBnb and once again I was touched by these people who entered my home as strangers and left as friends.
Through wisdom and prayer they spoke life to me, the life words of Christ, Holy Spirit filled prayers and an annointing with oil.
I slept peaceful once again and will again tonight.
How can I not.
How can I read and hear the Truth of God and not be at peace.

I have lots of thoughts I've written down
and the journey has been very interesting thus far,
but,
for now I think what I want to say on here is that whatever you are facing is not worth the time of day to fuss or worry or fume about.
No. 
Whatever it is, whether a tough marriage or a wayward child, a future unsure or a life well layed out; whatever you face it is always best to give God the Prasie and the glory for it and through it and do it with boldness.

Well I will give this post a quick prof read, so forgive any spelling or whatever errors, because it's off to bed with that littel girl who became my daughter on that ordinary day back in November 2011.

See we really never know what a day will hold;
however, we have full assurance of Who is holding each day.

Peace and love to you all,

11 comments:

Missy said...

Oh, Michelle, I'm so sorry to read this. Cancer just seems so pervasive in our lives now. My cousin Carey, younger than us, is a survivor and has blogged some of her experiences at https://fortuitouschange.wordpress.com/. She is a Christian, too, and I am constantly amazed at her faith. Might be a good read for you. You'll be in my prayers.

Allison Reynolds said...

Standing with you on this faith journey! You spoke words of truth. My mom told me a few years ago, "it is what it is." And I know everyone has heard those words, but they hit me hard and I embraced them. I couldn't change anything...except how I handled it. It freed me up from a lot of worry...God's got this!!! Blessings friend!!!

Superhero Mom said...

Yes you are...a breast cancer survivor! #heisfaithful

Superhero Mom said...

Yes you are...a breast cancer survivor! #heisfaithful

Kellei said...

Michele - thanks for sharing this! Your faith and your perspective will pull you through this. Sending love and hugs your way!

Kellei said...

Michele - thanks for sharing this! Your faith and your perspective will pull you through this. Sending love and hugs your way!

Doris Swift said...

Beautiful! I've been praying and what an amazing expression of faith and surrender. I especially love the last lines "See we really never know what a day will hold;however, we have full assurance of Who is holding each day." Love, hugs, and prayers for the journey XOXO

Unknown said...

Your faithfulness and trust in the True Healer is an inspiration to us all. As a "survivor" I understand the journey you are on. Continue to Praise Him even in the storm! Remember the rainbow we saw in Honduras? HE IS FAITHFUL to complete the work He began in you! I love you my sisterđź’ś

Kaitlyn Pintor said...

Wow cousin you are once again on a new journey. Please know we are praying with you, we love you, and we stand in agreement. May you experience the full restoration and answers you need soon. Take your time with the process. Xo

Kaitlyn Pintor said...

Wow cousin you are once again on a new journey. Please know we are praying with you, we love you, and we stand in agreement. May you experience the full restoration and answers you need soon. Take your time with the process. Xo

LJ said...

❤️ Thinking of you...

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