And Then There Were Seven

Court was today.


The date had been set since the kids came to live with us back in November 2011.


Actually, I take that back, today was not the original date, but when it comes to court dates I've learned they can change on a dime.


I find myself going to bed tonight with 2 less people in the house.
The older two kids have gone, little Aubry is still here.
I knew it would happen this way.
Just as quick as they came,
they left.


While they will be missed our home rejoices.
Rejoices for reunification with parents, 
rejoices for some sense of normalicy here at our home.
Although what is normal?
Does normal ever "set in" or does life continue to change,
each day,
each week,
each year bringing a different wind.


I've been stretched a lot these last 8 months.
I've grown.
I've seen a side of my heart I never knew existed.
I've laughed, cried, been confused, heard clarity.
I've gone with little to no sleep, learned to cook for 9 on a budget.
I've spoken out of turn, spoken in turn.
I've said the truth, wished I'd said the truth.
I've experienced life with a pre-teen girl, a first since I was one;
and I was reminded of how much fun 4-year-old boys are. Especially ones who like superheros.


So tonight I rest my head for the first time in my new normal.
I embrace it with an open mind, 
an open heart and...
with no expectations (at least for now).


I hope you all are having as peaceful a night as I am, resting in the knowledge of today being just the day ordained for you and with the hope of a tomorrow filled with a new adventure all it's own.


Now if I can just stop getting irritated with my son's cough... oh the juggling of life, 
peaceful and tranquil then irritated as all get loose. Bless his little heart.
Happy day to you all.

Aubry's evolving smile

Peace out--