Lately I've been wondering where God is?
Like where is He right now in my life?
Recently I have just felt like He isn't here with me, I mean how could he be?
My life feels so lonely and I wonder if I'll be alone forever.
Yet I'm not alone.
My house is a lot to care for and I am wondering when I won't have to work so many hours day and night.
I have an amazing family who I get to spend time with yet my work schedule has my daughter most often with her older brother and his family, I have accused myself of being a horrible mom.
Anxiety has crippled me like never before as my health the last year HAD slowing faded into a malnourished momma barely making it through each day; 2 hospital stays and a renewed hope has me on the up and up health wise.
Yet when I take the ACTION to PRAISE GOD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STORM,
when I take the ACTION to SING A LITTLE LOUDER IN THE PRESENCE OF MY ENEMIES.......
When I fight this battle where it is being fought, the anxiety fades away, the joy comes, the peace follow. It just is what it is.
This ACTION can look like this..... I seek prayer from the Christian community, I share with close friends what's going on and I sit still with God in prayer and His Word, I serve His people and give thanks.
I'm headstrong and my brain pathways are pretty well trodden to quickly think the worse and then stubbornly stay there.
I am reminded over and over again to simply stop and sit with scripture, God's Word, the truth, for it is my sword, your sword in the battle.
Ephesians 6:12
For our struggle is not against
flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world
and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Today, right now, I'm believing God and standing on His promises.
He loves me.
He's got me.
He's been there.
He love me.
I hope you can believe these truths with me and know that you are deeply loved by God.
XOXO
-M
