Monday, June 30, 2025

First 3.5 years Single - A Memoir

The first year was legit crazy.
I went from a cushy work from home gig doing what I wanted, when I wanted for the most part. My ex and I had spent 16 years growing a business that was finally allowing us/me to finally have some financial and tie freedom.
So when he left I was thrown into the workforce.
But I had boundaries, still have boundaries, on my work hours.
I worked 4 days a week at one job and then found a night time job as a server at the local Thai place. I worked 42-60 hours a week.
My bills got paid.
We got to travel.
Work hard, play hard.
We had a blast, but boy that first year was crazy.

Next up came year two. I not longer left my day job at the dog kennel I was working at to babysit dogs our of my home, then the Thai place closed down. 

I made it 3 months before I got notice I was losing "homestead exemption" on the home I was living in and paying for; yes, my ex had contacted the local property appraiser, letting them know he didn't live there anymore. MY MONTHLY MORTGAGE PAYMENT WHEN UP BY $500 OVERNIGHT!

That's when I went to Facebook and answered a job for tree sales; I would become what is known as a "walker". I would spend the next 3 months walking 10,000 - 20,000 steps a day knocking doors and selling tree work.
I will say this about tree sales: when it pays, it PAYS.
Anyway it was while walking for the second tree company that I was poached by a solar company to walk for them.
that lasted all of a month or two before I realized this was not the game for me.
I then took 5 weeks off and spent it in NH doing a little side work for friends and renting out a room to a traveling nurse back at the FL home.

Year 2 being single was coming to a close and I got a call from the dog kennel, would I want to come back and teach dog kindergarten, they had a much better name for the program but essentially I did arts and crafts and reinforced the basics with dogs, who at this point intime becoming my favorite people on the planet; calling dogs people is a blog post all its own for another time.

So year 3 single started as me being trained as I trained dogs to pass their Canine Good Citizen Test. What a fun job it was. I helped dogs balance on balance beams, jump over poles, sit still at parks and not chase the ducks at the river. While a very rewarding job it is hard work training dogs and this almost 50 year old was having major surgery so 8 months in, I said goodbye from the dog training world and began a year of decline.

That's all I can really call it, starting a few months before the 3 year anniversary of being left by my ex of 27 years 8 months and 2 weeks, I had a complication to my initial surgery and was rushed into emergency surgery just a week before a dog sitting job in NYC. That was the last of the last for me that 4th year being single. I'm not sure what happened as I am still finishing it up but I do know that it has been a year of shedding the old and stepping into something new.

My employment has settled down as I am back in bookkeeping/accounting world, this time I've learned about taxes!! Yes I am really excited for this new skill.

I am still watching dogs in my home. I just had 6 dogs at my place this last weekend and am in the middle of a 2 week 3x a day dog walking gig; so that little side gig has worked out pretty good, praise the Lord.

And that is what this is about, praising the Lord.
It's about a life that doesn't give up and does what it takes to get the job done.
Stick to it, stay close to God.
My pastor shared the story of Mary and Martha.
Be Mary. If you'd don't know the story, you can read it in the Bible.
Stay close to Jesus friends, remember God's hand is in your life, look for it and cling to His steadfastness, His never changing steadfast love for you.

{unedited version}
xoxo
-m

Monday, June 23, 2025

Pursuing Goals and doing hard things.

Pursuing goals and doing hard things.

I've never been a goal setter.
I've just gone out and done the thing.
While it has served me well, it has also been the thorn in my side when it comes to completing things.

I use to dislike this about myself and felt like something was wrong with me.

I've been accused of being a church hopper and an all "over the place kind of girl"; both are true, to some degree, they are also part of the story of an entrepreneurial women.

All of this to say I have some 5 year goals for the first time ever in my life.
Yippee! 
You're never too old to try something new, start something new, or be someone new.
So here's to 2025-2030, may the years be filled with new experiences, new adventures and lots of laughs.
xoxo
-M

Saturday, June 14, 2025

My Hair Is Coming Out in Clumps

My hair has been falling out and it is a struggle.

When I say falling out I mean like a lot.
My hairline has receded back and the parts in my hair show so much more white skin.

Hormones?
Stress?
Thyroid?

Yes, yes and yes.

I could use prayer, I'm struggling with this one.
Another bump in the road.
I don't wanna be bald again.
I don't want patchy hair.
I will do what comes my way, and until then let's all just relax in the fact that God loves us so much and has good works for us to do, may we do them no matter what our head looks like.

And let's face it I'm struggling to think I'll be alone forever; however, there is so much more to that story.
-Michelle

Friday, June 06, 2025

When it's Best to Sing

Lately I've been wondering where God is?
Like where is He right now in my life?
Recently I have just felt like He isn't here with me, I mean how could he be? 
My life feels so lonely and I wonder if I'll be alone forever.
Yet I'm not alone.
My house is a lot to care for and I am wondering when I won't have to work so many hours day and night.
I have an amazing family who I get to spend time with yet my work schedule has my daughter most often with her older brother and his family, I have accused myself of being a horrible mom.

Anxiety has crippled me like never before as my health the last year HAD slowing faded into a malnourished momma barely making it through each day; 2 hospital stays and a renewed hope has me on the up and up health wise.

Yet when I take the ACTION to PRAISE GOD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STORM,
when I take the ACTION to SING A LITTLE LOUDER IN THE PRESENCE OF MY ENEMIES.......

When I fight this battle where it is being fought, the anxiety fades away, the joy comes, the peace follow. It just is what it is.
This ACTION can look like this..... I seek prayer from the Christian community, I share with close friends what's going on and I sit still with God in prayer and His Word, I serve His people and give thanks.

I'm headstrong and my brain pathways are pretty well trodden to quickly think the worse and then stubbornly stay there.

I am reminded over and over again to simply stop and sit with scripture, God's Word, the truth, for it is my sword, your sword in the battle.

Ephesians 6:12
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Today, right now, I'm believing God and standing on His promises.
He loves me.
He's got me.
He's been there.
He love me.

I hope you can believe these truths with me and know that you are deeply loved by God.
XOXO
-M

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